past, present and future of suffering . . . .

According to Lacanian theory, acting out a symptom happens in occurrence with the Other, from an apprehensiveness which forgets the past or denies it.  The refusal of the Other to be in communication, for words to fall on deaf ears is the source of acting and acting out. If unable to express deep thoughts to the Other, then a rebellion begins. The rebellion in this case is to run from anything other than the self.  There being an O-ther is unlikely; so what is there to run from? Not knowing what you have been thrust into existence by; the thing in pursuit.  Running seems to be the nature of existence, because there seems to be something ahead, a future with desire or desire of the future.   Simone Weil once wrote that “Past and future, man’s only riches.”  Simone also wrote “The future is a filler of void places. Sometimes the past also plays this part (‘I used to be,’ ‘I once did this or that . . .’). But there are other cases when affliction makes the thought of happiness intolerable; then it robs the sufferer of his past.” Is the thought of happiness intolerable?   At this point it seems suffering is in the past, present, and future.  Is suffering a filler of the void? But, if past and future are riches, then suffering must be a treasure. I am fortunate to suffer.  I dare not look behind for I may be burned or blinded.